The time has come again for a reboot or rebirth depending on your point of view. In a life filled with major losses with gains interspersed, it could literally go either way. You do become quite adept at figuring out when to shake the clouds away. The trick is to follow through and do so. For me, not doing so has never been an option.
No matter how crushing a blow might have felt or seemed to be to me, there never was a time where giving up completely figured into the equation. Before you bestow kudos, I have come close. Very close to giving up and giving in. But I always manage to find a way to fight my way back from the edge of oblivion.
While it might sound melodramatic, I can assure you, losing all my immediate family, combined with a few really toxic relationships and you will scratch your head wondering why I haven’t gotten a lifetime achievement award from the Oscar voting members.
What Goes In This Space?
In this space I hope to try to enlighten and somewhat explain the process and how I have continued through the loss of children, and parents. Rejection that would and sometimes still does boggle the mind – and ultimately living on my own but finding ways to be content and happy. It is my sincere wish that these words reach and possibly help someone out there who needs to see and read them. So that they don’t feel so alone. Maybe in the reading of my how, they can find their own why. Why they should keep fighting and why giving up is not all its cracked up to be.
Relax its not as maudlin as all that at least not in this post. There will be times when I will have to provide backstory on the losses and the grief but that time is not now. Those who wish to get a heads up on things can do so by going here Dante’s Story ,
I will be posting links back to previous posts to provide backstory as needed so no worries you won’t get lost. Articles on this site will include dealing with the loss of an only child as a single parent. They will also include a variety of topics and forms including poetry on occasion. As I am a music baby there will always be a video or two posted but be not so quick to wax on or wax off. If you see a video post there is almost always some meaning behind it or rather inside it lyrically speaking.
The Beginning is at the End – or It Starts …
Primarily, these are the words of one who even when surrounded be people was on her own. One who has lost a child, and who has spent most of her life as a caregiver for spouse, Grandmother and mother. As life would have it now, she meaning I, MUST care for myself. Feel free to join me.