Me Myself and I: September 2005 Archives

empty yes thats a perfect word to describe how it feels to come home it doesnt even feel like home...its just a place i end up at the end of the day...I feel like I need to cry but the tears won't come...I knew it would take some getting used to but i just feel so....

Went to bed fairly early . Never did get to go out to dinner or anyplace else for that matter. Got no cards....got no phone calls...again another one goes down in history as a non event.

I look forward to the days when i myself forget what day my birthday is....

Well I definitely cannot claim that this birthday was dull or uninteresting. I got a dozen roses today which was a big surprise.....and i have gotten email from someone i NEVER thought I would hear from ever again...contrary to what many may think I spent most of the day at home....sleeping (TJ you will appreciate this) I was way overdue for some extra sleep and i got some today finally.

AS to the rest of the day there are no plans as of yet. Probably will wind up watching tv and getting ready for work tomorrow.

The week coming up will be full of challenges - my son's moving to Philadelphia, my mother's biopsy - and a host of other issues.....but then Mi Vida Loca.....

Truer words were never spoken. Fits the situation so to speak. Now to proceede along and do the predictable - throwing one's self into work I need to decide if I really am going to make that trip to atlanta once and for all. I still haven't decided what if anything I am going to do on my birthday this weekend. I need to get out but where and how I don't know yet...still contemplating this one..

Ran into my son's surgeon today - for once it was a good meeting

How to get this child to Philly next week this is the question...amongst many others

I feel a big change or life change i should say coming on....with all the things that are going on right now in my life it seems like the natural progression that something major - via change will be happening soon....

In the course of two years I have lost my step father to cancer, had my son diagnosed with an extremely rare form of cancer and as of yesterday had my mother also diagnosed with some form of bone cancer that has yet to be determined(the exact form)

i don't think it's entirely possible to speak on this subject in one post. There are so many facets of this tragedy that I think for the sake of clarity I will tackle them separately in separate posts. The government - Federal and Local - the people, the racism, the response - the religous implications - and whatever other topic pops to mind.

Ever wake up and just think today is a glorious day...

Thinking real love can exist...does this fall into the realm of gullibility

Yes it's been a while Yes it's been hectic but...