Me Myself and I: July 2005 Archives

I wanted to do the right thing, to stop being taken for granted, and being disrespected - to get out of what was a completly horrid situation with a person who is a user and a liar and a manipulator and who never gave one care about me or my well being

Wonder why it is that in doing the right thing, you ultimately wind up feeling so incredibly horrid.

Additionally, wonder why is it that the person who has already been horribly mistreated winds up feeling worse...and the person who perpetrated the sequence of events leading to and creating the hurtful situation...gets to skip off into the sunset none the worse for their adventures...

Wonder why it is that as much as i know and realize i need sleep and rest to get to work in the morning that I cannot fall asleep no matter how hard I try...

Wonder why when you are hurt so many times by so many things that you develop an immunity to tears and find yourself unable to cry even though the tears feel like they want to come in a flood.

"It's a man's world..." and so it is. In an impulsive moment i decided to do something just to test that out.

To say the last few weeks have been overwhelming does not even begin to explain it all. The end result was me being sick as a dog yesterday and having to stay home lest i go out and pass out in the street somewhere.

The weekend was not as enjoyable as it should be with the ridiculous incidents leading up to it.