Today, is Dante's birthday...lots of emoitons and things floating around today. But I think going forward as has been the case, that we both get more opportunities to transcend the circumstances, rather than become victims to them.
Sorry but no mushy tear-jerker post this morning. Today is just one day of many that I choose to be happy in spite of and in DEFIANCE of the circumstances around me.
I was going to post about the surgery and how the day went but I feel like i have no emotions from which to draw from in order to convey the events.
After today im just numb............and maybe its better that way....
Title of the image is "Goodbye Girl"
reminded me of the song....and yes this is one of "mine"
my day was just ruined with a phone call from dante's father saying that because we were unable to provide his insurance company with verification of his attending school, that they are cancelling his policy effective as of august 1st.....
i give the fugg up....
Another favorite - this one at the Eisenhower Memorial in Washington DC
This is one of my favorite pics that Dante' has taken. This is at one of the war memorials in Washington DC
This is the Caucus that dante was a part of and actually he's in this picture Way in the back !
Yeah I know the beatles im sure will forgive me the pun.
This was taken in DC and are some of the kids in Dante's Caucus
I have been going through a lot of old pictures that have been taken but never printed out or put anywhere. This picture is one of a slew of pictures that dante took when he went to Washington DC as part of a program called Presidential Classroom - which brings together some of the top students in the country for a week to learn and discss policy on specific topics - The week that Dante went was Science and Technology week. It was a wonderful and tremendous opportunity for him to experience Washington and see government up close and personal.
had a bit of a scare with dante last night....he had gone to the bathroom and was hit with some weird pain...he usually has some degree of pain after going to the bathroom anyway (by product of that damn thing) but last night he had sat down afterwards for a while and couldnt get up...it's really hard not knowing what's going on inside....he is not due in to discuss the scans until wednesday...so we wait in the meantime....and i continue to wonder how it is i don't lose my mind with all this....
gotta get out of the house right now...need to get my head right....
Today finally was the day that Dante started the MIBG radiation treatments. I found this out late last night when, he finally decided to come in from a chinese food run. Luckily I had already put in for the next two days to be off and so I was able to accompany him to Sloan.
IT has always been interesting to note people's reactions when you are caught up in the midst of dealing with this 'cancer" situation as well as the things relating to it. As was today you will get some that will express concern for you and (dante's) well being and who will exhort you to take care and rest(both of us) then you have the people who for whatever reason were expecting you to do something and can't understand when you try and explain to them that you are severely time constrained. Can't understand why you can't fit whats going on into a scheduled time slot, or in the case of an irate parent, can't and won't accept that you can't run all over town all day and turn around and do it ONE MORE GIN, without passing out from exhaustion.
I try not to but I worry - about Dante and his health, although I know he hasnt gotten sleep like he has been getting since he's been back in a long time. He's back on taking his pressure 4x's a day....he's on so many medications right now its hard to keep up with all of them. He's scheduled to start testing again starting tomorrow...and it's as it has been so many questions and no answers...we actually had a cool moment on the 4th when we were redoing his NSBE membership online. Sometime's its so hard not to cry - like now...
the documentary thing he did is supposed to be coming on in about a week and a half...im going to try and tape it this time. We had taped it before but God only knows where that tape wound up during the move.
My heart is real heavy today - i usually or i should say of late dont let myself think about dante's condition too much. Past experience has taught me that it Immobilizes and is not a really good idea...but im really vulnerable today...my heart is real weighed down...i hate thinking about the damn tests he has to take...i wish he was out somewhere enjoying his summer instead of having to undergo another battery of tests
