Wake up to blood - fall asleep in pain scared but knowing what it all means.
confirmation of what you already know is true from all the times in the past that this has happened does nothign to ease the pain - not the mental pain. Dissapointment hangs heavy, and the empty apartment seems ginormous and more empty than usual...
Wish I could just curl up into a ball - then again not it won't change anything - I will still be losing another one not knowing if there will be another one and the thought itself is just crushing and makes me feel like i can't breathe...
hot tears squeeze out the corners of my eyes and slide down my cheeks - and right now i feel more alone than i have in a long time...
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