Still feeling sad today - can't talk about too much - tears are not far and i have to maintain especially around strangers. So much sadness....spoke for a minute - I still feel like he has doubts - and that hurts so so much. KNowing that he doesnt trust me...really truly hurts...at a time like this when i really need him im having to deal with him actually not believing me in this of all things? I can't and believe me i've tried to figure out what possible reason someone would have for makign THIS up - especially knowing what I have been through. I can't for the life of me figure that out. I know he has said that because of his situation with carol? that he's leary? Funny because im not trying to get anything out of him and in fact i am the one who LOST.....apparently in more than one way.....and the innocent get punished with the guilty...
Alone again - Naturally
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