In a perfect world, this weekend would have been capped off by a gathering of thte female minds, namely sista-friends getting together to come to the aide of their "sista" namely me. Debates and arguments would have raged on about the right and wrong of relationships, men, the men in OUR lives, etc
Sides would have been drawn with one side being the side that agrees with the "space" theory and says i am and have been overly sensitive with regards to that - and the other side saying im dead right if it doesnt feel right....keep it moving - next.... 
Funny thing about oprah and all the other self help "gurus" out there who trumpet on about surrounding one's self with only positive people. They never tell you what to do in t he meantime while you gather those positive people around you and or they never mentione what you do when you have excised all the negative people from you and you wake up one morning totally alone...what you do....
Which leaves a party of one to sit back and reflect and contemplate on one's own behaviour and actions, perceptions and so forth....arguably perhaps a much more insightful introspection than one that would have been brought forth with outside entities who would bring along their own internal prejudices
That being said..
I am willing to conceede that i was somewhat overwrought this weekend but it precipitated a much needed conversation that resolved some things...and not others....but it was at the very least if nothing else a dialog that needed to take place.
Some absolute truths....
I do love HIM
He does Care
He is under stress(family situation, mother in particular)
I NEED to find OTHER things to do with myself instead of counting on him to provide me with "entertainment" continuously (every single weekend without fail?)
I am trying to get my gym hat back on and i did go this weekend and im planning on going tonight after work....
We shall see what we shall see...

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