Things have been so crazy around here...often times im not sure which way is up or down or sideways..I had to go back to work but I am convinced that I really and truly was not ready to go back just yet. But the prospect of having my insurance benefts withdrawn or worse wind up unemployed was not something promising.
People keep asking me how I feel and I still at this point dont' know how I feel. Other than to say I can relate to the old story about the dog sitting patiently by the doorway waiting for his master to return....not leaving for a second but just sitting there waiting patiently day in and day out waiting - not realizing his master is not coming back.....that about sums it all up in a nutshell ....
I feel like I am walkign around in a daze like everything is still so unreal....was supposed to go to a staff meeting today but i couldn't do it and im sitting here now typing and crying...and wondering what's to become of me....i just don't know...
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