With all the rain we have been having lately, my legs have really been painful and walking has been a real challenge - not going to the gym for over a week im sure hasn't helped either but i figured with all the work being done at the house to move and clear out stuff it would have balanced out but evidently not.
Last night i had to go to UPS to retrieve a package that was sent but that there was no one home to accept delivery on. The UPS office is way out in the middle of an "industrial" park with no houses and at that time of night (around 9ishPM) there were very few cars as well, words like desolate and deserted come to mind... in any case as im walking im thinking to myself that this is how people turn up missing - walking through areas like this alone...and i thought if someone drove up right now i could dissapear and no one would even know what happened...and as that thought was rolling around in my head i wondered, what am i doing wrong? Why does it have to be this way?
What am i missing ? I remember thinking I need to refocus and of all things i pulled back from wondering what was wrong to actually focusing on the grinding pains in my legs from the hips down into my knees and actually just concentrated on the pain and was at least able for the time it took me to walk the four long isolated blocks to the UPS office, forget the whys and the wondering what i might or might not be doing wrong....
just focused on the pain and put one foot in front of the other....kind of like what i do every day of my life...
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