Ok i got in last night from the gym and find out Dante had gone into the clinic because he was having more pain in his neck and actually left me a message saying that he was feeling a "cold wet pain" in his head and so he went into the clinic and they admitted him. Evidently once again no one thought to notify me which is why i didnt find out until i got home last night.
I got a call from my mother because she wanted to discuss travel arragenemnts for her coming back up here since now the lawyers are waiting on her to do the closing....after finding out dante was in the hospital i just couldn't talk and i didnt call but she called me...and demanded to know why i hadn't called her...i remember calling her an "evil woman" and saying dante's in the hospital before hanging up the phone...
I spoke to him briefly last night on the phone, I was going to turn around and go back to the hospital but he suggested i wait till the morning and just come over after i sign in at work ( i work across the street from his hospital) Appreantly he is being evaluated by the Neurology team to rule out aneurysms, the tumor spreading, or anything of that nature. They did an MRI and an MRA last night and when I got in this morning to see him the doctor told me those tests were negative..
He still has to go for a spinal tap at some point today..I haven't really said anything to anybody and I guess right now i just don't feel like talking much or having to tell this story over and over. I haven't said anything here at work and I doubt that I will because im tired of people looking at me with pity
Those parents over at the center are going to be up in arms since i was supposed to send out their order today and im not sure if i will get around to it and quite frankly right now i dont give a damn...
Days like today make me wonder if i will ever see a time in my life where im happy again....these days it doesnt feel like it and no place i go can i find peace of mind...
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