Clear out the rest of my mother's house, this includes getting rid of pieces of furniture that were left that she did not want an dthis must be done expeditiously as there is a re-appraisal that needs to be done asap. All this work must be done by me. My son cannot help me and there's no one else to help with moving the furniture or the cleaning and mopping that has to be done to each floor. Lest one be misled, there are things like china cabinets and wardrobe closets scattered throughout the house that i have to find ways to remove...some up a flight of stairs...so its not just a sweep and mop type clean up
I have already gotten nasty phone calls from her - when thinking i hadn't been over to start clearing out the house she decided to call me and threaten me on the phone at work. at home, on the way to work and on the way home...to the point where i dont even feel like answering my phone anymore
Finally get the new insurance authorization system that I have been "designated" as the caretaker for. a system that right now will take authorization requests from 30 social workers but will ultimately be department wide - which will mean I alone will be processing insurance authorizations for over 105 social workers both inpatient and outpatient. I have been saddled with creating the system by which to do this, the actual processing of each request, the creation of a filing system to archive all the requests as they come in, AND to compile a database of all the insurance carriers.This in addition to already maintaining and creating a skilled nursing facility database that contains contact information for all the skilled nursing facilities within the NY area (there are 322), completing acute rehab packets(referrals to rehabilitation facilities which consist of chart notes and doctors notes retreived from the online med notes system.
Complete the name change for the org,, make good on the monies "appropriated" by one of the staff members who thought it would be cute to just collect registration fees and not turn them in and not make restitution.
Somehow find time to redo my hair (its braided) and it takes about a day to rebraid - at least half an afternoon to take out.
continue to CONSISTENTLY attend the gym and work towards getting back down to a more normal weight and size for health reasons. This means i dont get home before 7 any day of the week.
go to the lab and take the glucose tolerance test - my doctors have requested that i take one
wait for the results of the scans from my son's radiation treatment to see if it worked or didnt
if it worked how well, and when the next treatment would be if there needs to be one? If it didnt to find out what's next and Ultimately to find out if he will even be able to go back to college in the fall.
Find a way to cope with the greatest love that i have ever known which has caused me some of the harshest pain i have ever endured,
Stave off a major financial crisis (see above)
not lose my mind in the process
tthere's no particular order to these things in fact they ALL are screaming to be taken care of immediately all at once...
The insurance thing is work related and i have no margin for error much with that. This is being done under the very watchful eye of the director of the department as well as my own supervisor.
Howeevr it would seem that even having the correct tools in order to carry out these tasks is not going to be easy...i have already been waiting over a month to have the clinical application to review patient notes installed(push install) on my pc at work and they have not done it YET. Somehow, i will be held responsible for that...
This means that every time i get a request i have to go find someone else's pc that has this application on it and print out the notes i need from their terminal and then go back to my office to call the insurance companies or the case managers and process the requests...
The home thing, was my last best chance at having a home of my own someday...now that's gone...and with what i make...its very unlikely that i will ever own a home..especially not here in NYC. The sidebar to all that is now, i am the only one in the family left in NYC everyone else has moved out of state either down south or scattered across the us.
Name change for the org sounds easy until you realise they have studiously been waiting for ME to file the paperwork and pay the fees when im already struggling financially as it is. I have on more than ONE occaisison suggested that the fees be split and all that comes back is a resounding silence. I am still making good on the monies that this human waste pile decided to keep and not make good on. No one is going to him about them they all come to me i have angry parents blowing up my phone demanding to know whats up...(yet another reason not to answer the phone)
redoing my hair has financial overtones - i can't do it until i can buy the supplies to redo it so (see above)
Consistenly going to the gym means carrying a heavy azz bag with sneakers and gym gear to work every day and resignin gmyself to not getting home before seven...on a regular basis...as an anemic person im already tired by the time i make it to the end of the day...by 8 im utterly exhausted...
doing things for yourself sounds real good until you realize the significance of keeping a roof over your head an din the case of some of the items on this list, being able to keep a job so that i can KEEP that roof over my head - as i don't have a back up or someone to pinch hit for me should i take ill or lost my job...if i can't work i will wind up on the street destitute...its just that simple...and so then working takes on a whole new meaning...and at present, doing things "(for myself which is not limited to but could include my hair and going to the gym)
It's hard to ever do anything for yourself when you are struggling to keep your head above water constantly reminded that if you dare get sick or find yourself unable to work...you will be on the street....
which is why i keep a headache and suffer with horrible insomnia
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