Someone asked me today about heartache, and i had to stop and think - to realize that most of my life has been filled with heartache of some sort that has been the one consistent theme even from early childhood.
When I think about heartache, for me all the things that I have not done that i have seen and do see people take for granted. The family gatherings, the cookouts family dinners around the holidays....phone calls from a significant other asking if you want to go out to dinner, being picked up from work - to never having had a baby shower, that list is so incredibly and excrutiatingly long that to dwell on it long enough to generate it would probably cause a blue funk that i would be hard pressed to get out of. These are the things I have longed for - most of my life that have never happened and as i move on through life at some point have to accept and or reconcille myself to realizing they may never happen. this is a challenge and a difficult one as the list is long....the things are things that i have lived my whole life looking forward to...this is a major mental effort to consider let alone act on.
heartbreak - actual actions that cause pain...again thats been most of my life some things more so than others but there has been more times i have been heartbroken than not....
What can you do to change these things? Can you change them? Or do you change focus? Change your reactions to the things themselves - especially when as in many of the cases there's nothing you can do..?
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