Then began the most mentally exhausting relationship I have ever been in aside from my marriage. He ultimately wound up coming over but obviously with an attraction that strong something was bound to happen. It did..and that was the crux of one of our major problems...see W was obviously attracted/turned on by me however, at that time he would not induldge in full intercourse - as it turns out because of his "marriage". There was at that time some seriously heavy petting and oral stuff going on but never penetration.
To be involved with someone who is constantly telling you they care about you, who looks at you like you are some kind of goddess, but then on the other hand refuses to completely consumate the relationship is, I believe a form of mental abuse. And while it took me a little while I eventually gained the necessary strength/courage/moxy or whatever you want to call it to walk away from him.
Part of doing that entailed me threatening to go to his wife and tell her what was going on. IN doing so i even went as far as contacting one of the members of his church that knew both him and his wife but she refused to say anything and by that time i just wanted that whole sordid mess to be over and to get on with my life. Or at least make the attempt.
WE ended things in 2001 a month before september 11 and when the towers came down all i could think of was - he could be dead or hurt and i will never know....and i will never ever see him again...
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