Just to explain a point that some may have not figured out yet...I feel so head over heels in love with this man that I am still searching for words to explain this all and years later im still hard pressed. I know why i just dont know why its so incredibly strong and why when i have attempted to "search" elsewhere or get into something else it absolutely never works out.
When we broke up - i got involved in a relationship that lasted two and a half of the four years we were apart and that was a complete disaster....words like rebound come to mind..and actually was an example of how desperate i was to get W out of my mind and to get the feelings i had for him out of my system...being without him hurt more than i ever imagined it could - and it just never would stop the pain was constant no matter what i did...no matter what i tried...
TO a man....anyone i have tried to "see" or anytime i have said...ok well i need to keep my options open and allow myself to accept interest from anyone else..always and i do mean always wound up being nothing but complete and total bullshat....
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