As I am grappling with a relationship that is not anything close to "ideal" i have to vent. it is a situation where i really can't talk to anyone about this much but if i don't get some of what im feeling and thinking off my chest i feel like i will really lose it.
The best way to do this is to start at the beginning.....so here goes
I met W back in 2000 and it was one of those "freak" things. I was headed to the video store to return some tapes and was standing at the bus stop waiting for a bus when W comes walking down the block. I was struck by him at the time because of the neighborhood we were in and his appearance did not match. He had on a suit and a full length trench coat and just seemed very out of place. Lost even, was what i thought as i glimpsed him walking towards me. I didn't think too much more at the time other than that thought. I was therefore stunned when this same person decided to "speak" to me. I was carrying one of my MCSE textbooks as i was studying for that at the time and he asked me about it and made mention of the fact that you don't see too many people let alone sistas walking around with that kind of book anywhere. He introduced himself and stated that he worked as manager of an IT department down on wall street. My responses were pretty much by rote. When i say i was struck dumb by this man's appearance, it is an understatement. The thought i did have at the time was..."why is this man talking to me of all people" I was expecting allen funt to jump out at any moment and say Smile you're on candid camera.
The bus finally comes and i get on thinking ok well it was nice chatting with him and make a bee line for the single seats thinking ok well this is a non confrontational way to let the conversation end. I hadn't counted on him coming to sit right in front of me. Where he proceeded to continue the conversation and asked me for my email address. I gave it to him not believing for one second that he would ever use it.
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