Children

AS difficult and crazy and as little of a support system as i have, i can't shake the desire to do the one thing that i seem to have done exceptionally well - i have always had a deep and abiding love for children which goes way way back. Even though my life did not turn out the way that i envisioned this is an ache that just doesnt go away and everything around me serves to remind me of my childless state soon to be unable to bear children and if this sounds like its depressing it is...i have to work hard not to think about this very hard