September 2005 Archives

Time Passages

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Dante graduated a long time ago from the little boy that used to always wind up his way into my bed at night to go to sleep..even when i put him to sleep in his own bed.....

He may not do that but sometimes - every once in a while he will do something that will remind me of that little boy. I hadn't heard from him for a day or two when he left to go to college> today he's called me three times already. I miss him too.....and we both shared a laugh when he said he finally got out of this house....God i wish i could too...He says he feels good. I think hes making friends someone let him use their cell phone to call me tonight

When i close my eyes i can still see the little child playing with his brio train set on the living room floor....but i open them to a young man who has moved out on his own to attend college at a presitgous university and i just wonder where all the time went....

Empty Nest

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empty yes thats a perfect word to describe how it feels to come home it doesnt even feel like home...its just a place i end up at the end of the day...I feel like I need to cry but the tears won't come...I knew it would take some getting used to but i just feel so....

Went to bed fairly early . Never did get to go out to dinner or anyplace else for that matter. Got no cards....got no phone calls...again another one goes down in history as a non event.

I look forward to the days when i myself forget what day my birthday is....

Happy Birthday to Me

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Well I definitely cannot claim that this birthday was dull or uninteresting. I got a dozen roses today which was a big surprise.....and i have gotten email from someone i NEVER thought I would hear from ever again...contrary to what many may think I spent most of the day at home....sleeping (TJ you will appreciate this) I was way overdue for some extra sleep and i got some today finally.

AS to the rest of the day there are no plans as of yet. Probably will wind up watching tv and getting ready for work tomorrow.

The week coming up will be full of challenges - my son's moving to Philadelphia, my mother's biopsy - and a host of other issues.....but then Mi Vida Loca.....

FYI - Time Change

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No you are not crazy the time settings were off just realized and fixed them but apparently the posts that were already made will keep the times that they had when they were posted - im disinclined to go through them all and change them so this and the next previous entry have the correct times - the rest are off....time not date though...

Truer words were never spoken. Fits the situation so to speak. Now to proceede along and do the predictable - throwing one's self into work I need to decide if I really am going to make that trip to atlanta once and for all. I still haven't decided what if anything I am going to do on my birthday this weekend. I need to get out but where and how I don't know yet...still contemplating this one..

Ran into my son's surgeon today - for once it was a good meeting

How to get this child to Philly next week this is the question...amongst many others

Steps Back....

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Ok here is a scenario where I have had to step back - be it instinctual or out of a sense of self preservation - fear maybe who can tell at this point - the instinct to protect my heart from hurt is strong as steel

Trash Talk

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Don't you just hate it when a person talks endless amounts of trash and then in the final analysis nothing happens.
The person in question is male...wonder if this a gender specific condition?

Wonder if it is a gender specific condition that even makes one notice it?

What does it take to comprehend that actions speak louder than words...words are made more powerful by actions that correspond with the words that are spoken. Seems simple right?

Why then do so many people get it wrong....???

Hmmmm to be continued...

I feel a big change or life change i should say coming on....with all the things that are going on right now in my life it seems like the natural progression that something major - via change will be happening soon....

feel lousy maybe some fresh air will help? Waiting to hear from dante to find out his appointment with the doctor today went...

I still have to run clothes up to the tenth floor - and find someplace to print out the rest of the notes for two acute packets i need to finish.

In the course of two years I have lost my step father to cancer, had my son diagnosed with an extremely rare form of cancer and as of yesterday had my mother also diagnosed with some form of bone cancer that has yet to be determined(the exact form)

I just Can't win....

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I can't have just ONE good day....not even 3/4 of a day....my mother calls me from the doctors office to tell me that they definitely feel SHE has cancer....i get home and my son tells me that his pressure has been elevated since this weekend and so now he has to go to the doctor TOMORRROW as opposed to wednesday....

I am running out of reasons/motivations to keep going on

Lunchtime was a blessing - I managed to sneak over to the promenade and got to watch some nice boats go by while enjoying the cool breeze off the water...It was while I was sitting there that I got a phone call from my mother

To speak about the Disaster that was katrina and the implications as well as reactions of the government one cannot just speak to the federal government. A true reflection of the role of government in what appears to be the worst natural disaster in US recorded history would need to examine the roles of State and Local government officials before during and after this event which will affect not only those who lived in Louisiana but all of us for decades to come.


Before you can even gett to that discussion one must look at the beginnings of things and in this case i start off with the Weather Channel....for obvious reasons....

Katrina - My Thoughts

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i don't think it's entirely possible to speak on this subject in one post. There are so many facets of this tragedy that I think for the sake of clarity I will tackle them separately in separate posts. The government - Federal and Local - the people, the racism, the response - the religous implications - and whatever other topic pops to mind.

Glorious Day/Daze

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Ever wake up and just think today is a glorious day...

General Malaise

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No matter how much sleep you get - which in my case isn't much, during waking hours I feel like i still need to be asleep or a general sense of blah....

Thinking real love can exist...does this fall into the realm of gullibility

Yes it's been a while Yes it's been hectic but...

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