Usually in times of crisis, you find out who your real friends are as those who are not step back and those who are step up.
This puts a different spin on my situation as there really wasn't a number of people to step up or back.
The one constant through all this has been TJ and I reluctantly relate the goings on here to her because at times it seems like theres nothing good going on and I get tired of relating nothing but bad news.
There is no "friends" plural. There have been a lot of people who have come into my life and have decided that I would be "helpful" to them. That was as far as my association with them ever got.
Take Annette for example, she was named to a director position and immediately asked my help for upcoming events, for creating a calendar and for doing some printwork. As long as she could ask me to do things for her and I did them things were cool. The minute I no longer was available to do these "things" my phone stopped ringing and the emails stopped coming.
When Dante got sick and went into the hospital i got all of two phone calls during the whole time he was in the hospital. This from someone who "works with youth"
Corey was a special case. WE actually grew up in the same church together but grew up and apart. Circumstances made our paths cross again and we clicked on a conversation level and would have talks into the wee hours of the morning about life, love, etc.
The conversations got to the point where we were going to meet up and hang out for the day but at the last minute i backed out. I think that My feelings were real chaotic at the time and i really didnt want to sacrifice the conversations so i chickened out.
Corey and I went through the death of his father and the complete disownment of his family. I was at one point, literally the only person he was in communication with.
He also warned me numerous times about Bingo but of course i was way past hearing at that point...
When things fell apart on that end we just fell out of touch. I have tried to call him but his phone is not in service or he's changed the number. Either way I can't reach him so...another one bites the dust.
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